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presence-absence-memories

when presence is being appreciated,

absence are being missed

and memories being refreshed.....

two weeks to Ramadhan.... a week left to have some time spend personally with love.... and time is kindda limited. thou' i know the usual communication, updates, sharings will remain its nothing compared to being with him. although it is just a 20mins drive plus a 25mins talk in a car by the drop-off point, i still enjoy that moment. even without a drink *big smile with hidung kembang* err, dont try to do that dear :)

sometimes, timbul juga rasa kesian towards him and myself. pity him for he needs to make a longer and rush trip at times, pity myself for always checking on the time. will there be a day where i dont have to check on the time when i'm with him? Allah knows best...

well, being a little hopeful lately but kindda disappointed. the feeling that i strongly hoping for a little one has been occupying my mind only to be surprised by an early sign of "its not the time yet". couldnt deny the pressure i have with hubby who kept counting the days. knowing i'm not the type of person who keeps track. but i'm glad i am one who get things over quickly, not harping on it and gets emotionally affected by the disapointments. and all praises to Allah.

somehow the brain sidetracked to the conversation i had earlier with love.... the way he tried to imitate me when i questioned him of his lesser suprised visit... haha!! and now i'm trying hard not to burst into laughter. he can be a total joker at times. batman nya joker pun kalah. thank god, my colleague is still on leave, else she will be wondering why am i quietly laughing to myself. i had began to imagine his facial expression while he tried to imitate my quick squirky voice. dia punya usik orang sekarang, makin menjadi and its when u least expect it. and now, i'm reminded of our time spent at the bowling alley. the fan's blade which was wrongly fixed, padanlah tak rasa angin. allahuakhbar! i'm like totally giggling to myself now. all thanks to my bowling practice later and somehow recalled my bowling sessions with him. i so missed that moment very much. that does not add to the time where we had our first and last session with kakak and hang kebun.... that was the most lepak moment. sampai ada yang tergolek2 kat alley tu. and si joker pun boleh ikut rentak. sometimes, when you are surrounded by good company, the childishness of onself was unknowingly exposed. and he never failed to make me smile. and i love him each day.

I wonder how true when people say, "sometimes one can be the best companion one could ever have, but they are not meant to live together." if i could ever be given a choice, "i would love to live together with my best companion".

and i want you to know that i am missing and loving you lots

a week

it's been a week love return from his trip..... yeah, purposely waited till he meet up with me before i start blogging again.... *eyebrows up-evil grins* *stop-your-cheeky-smile-too*

and so, he was back to work since mon, but only had the chance to meet me for lunch today..

he looks good, alhamdulillah.... 7kg down, err, yet to believe, but, got to agree he did shed a little...

a little only okay!

i am happy to see him... the norm of sharing stories, all ears, and the geez was of course, the meet of his ex-gf at madinah.... hmm.... mcm cerita adam dan hawa pula... i was truthfully forgotten about what he shared months back of her trip there too, until, that look from his face, when he said, guess whom i met at madinah... and ting-ting-ting, cepat pula brain nie works. okay, tts enough to write about.

i'm very happy. yup. it's been awhile since we last joke and teased each other. and tangan dia tu masih macam dulu, macam sotong. thankfully, my ketam finger still behave.... anyway,  i was made known of his return through a short wassap on fri. that was enough to end my clueless-ness of his safe return. and i'm contented that he still remember to at least update me. thank you dear.

i loved you 3years ago. still in love with you, and insya'Allah will continue to love you many more years to come....... love and miss you lots.

absence

"absence makes the heart grows fonder"

missing him terribly.....

just as i was about to recover from my fever, flu and cough, i was sick again on wed night. took a day off from work on thurs, the same day he left for his trip.....

while i couldnt stop thinking of him, i was surprised by a text message by a colleague who told me of my promotion... i was overjoyed.

i wanted him to be among the first to know of my good news. but there was no way i could reach him.

left him chats, but left unreplied. thus, i decided to send him a wassap a quarter to 6pm,

where he definitely was already at the airport....

and a simple reply from him was received.

it's been only a week since i last seen him.

and i couldnt deny further that i miss him so much.

came back to office today, only to realise he left me a mail on sunday.

i was happy. at least i know he's doing good there.....

this may sound crazy, but, i kept checking my ym chats, knowing its impossible for him to access the internet. but, i had a pleasant surprise from him... the email left for me was more i could ask for.

i love him lots.