never feel this bored at work before. its really a dry day for me.... been thinking a lot about him... ran though some of my writings on us in one of my "diary".... so much love, so much fun, so much time spent together and communicated....
came across one of my writings on one of the days where he asked, why do i love him......
and i wrote.
"his never-ending love that he has been showering me with, his sincerity, his care and concern which i realised from Day 1. I've not met someone who will show his love endlessly, who will ensure that his love is made known to his partner, who will always wants to know if his partner loves and still loves him."
sadly, he has never really gotten a constant answer from me.... but he doesnt know that, i do constantly say my love towards him, constantly say that i miss him to myself without his knowledge.
Came across another....
"he asked, how is it feel to fall in love? cos' this is the first time he is feeling falling in love. the feeling of falling in love with me. And so i halted, am i too?"...... "had our usual conversations after lunch and he suddenly said, "saya nak nikah dengan awak...." in my heart, macamana aku nak jawap.... "
i may lie to him, that i don't love him, i don't miss him...
but i can't lie to myself that i'm deeply in love with him and i miss him so much...
ya, i'm feeling very sad right now. i wish he could be beside me now and hug me tight.
No comments:
Post a Comment