drifting slowly...

the blog has been quiet for a month. the updates are slowly fading and soon it will comes to an end. just like the sayings, "setiap yang bermula pasti akan berakhir".... slowly but surely. 

everyone has been busy, myself not an exception. Alhamdulillah, the financial closing is not too much of a madness, as consistent updates and trackings ease the hassle. Another day to go through, and its finally over. And a new phase of work awaits together with a change of Reporting Officer. Nothing criticial thou' 

 My penang trip is just a week plus left. The scrabble sets and scoring sheets had all been prepared. Somehow, look forward to a nice flight and a short shopping spree. Yeah! Time to be on my own. I badly need that. 

 The missing MH370 flight is finally showing some leads. Innalillahi wainna ilahi rojiun. My heart goes out to the crew and passengers of the aircraft. As well as the family that was left behind. Only Allah knows the reason behind the missing aircraft. An eye-opener to the world, esp the Muslim country. How advance the technology that one country could possibly have, can never beat the will of Allah. 

 Family routine remains. Princesses are growing and managing themselves well. Like a kite, pulling and letting them go as and when needed. Pampered little one is as mischivious as always. Her kind heart and concern has always been my minus point, as she activated it each time she sense I'm gonna tell her off. Eldest, more to herself now. The growing up of a teenager. Occupied with her school activities and getting herself involved with the things she enjoy doing. She is in love with her CCA, music, dance, songs... and told me that day, choir is fun, luckily she did not switch to Malay dance, which i somehow rejected that idea. Her bday present came early... her long awaited IPHONE 5S. Her smiles and excitement was shiningly shown when she first had her hand on it. Blessed to see their smiles. 

 After much persuasion for months, i finally gotten my mini-just-right-size fish tank. I'm sooo loving it. Came home to see the tank filled with colorful guppies and mollies, released me of my stressful day. Alhamdulillah. Hubby bought it for me last weekend with his comments, "apa dia nak smua dapat eh".. haha!! LIFE! 

 Mr Love has been busy as always. The last that I met him was probably 2weeks ago, lunching at Nandos. A last minute one. Where, after lunch, he accompanied to get my eldest toiletries for her camp. Communication has been consistent, except for my less updates on YM. I was never tired nor bored with the relationship, but, i'm sure the lesser time spent with each other does have a blessings behind it. Recalling to one of our conversations on YM, where Mr Love mentioned sacrificing the short term love for a long and everlasting one, together in Jannah, insyaAllah; triggers me to a point where, should i make the first move? But the problem is, I couldnt. Not sure I couldnt because, i did not put an effort to making that move, or my love for him is just too much to let go. I've been keeping myself quiet lately. Abiding to anything he said when he couldnt have the time for our lunch hour. Not even wanting to tease him like i usually do, when I'm missing him that much. I guess, a price that I have to pay for starting this 4 years ago. But, i've never regretted knowing nor loving him. I love him still and missing way him too much. And the worst feeling ever was, feeling awkward and takes a little more time to adjust when being with him, probably because of the not so frequent meets like before. 

InsyaAllah, everything will be good.