Its the 9th day hub is away on AOG to Philippines... And ive been extremely tired since then. Handling the gerls have never been a problem as they have been cooperative and responsible so far. Despite being extremely worn out, I brought the gerls to visit their grandma last week. And my sat was fully tested when I had to rush from my Quranic Reading Class at Masjid Sultan to send the gerls for their madrasah. Thanks to Allah for the strength he gave, housework was not left out. It was definitely a tight weekend.
Work is ridiculously crazy. I have never feel so tensed up with workloads. But this time, not only it test on my capability but also my patience towards one of my MXO. Her no confidence, blurn-ess, kanchiong-nes, repetitive questions are driving me insane. I could no longer hold on to my "i'm-so-nice-and-helpful" motto. Lately, i will just blast my unhappiness. Gosh!
Mr Love: several attempt for meet-ups failed until today. Lunch dates too have been difficult. He could never understand how I feel cos' he is not the one waiting. And I'm truly getting used to this. Its been 4 years. Alhamdulillah. Hopeful of many more years, InsyaAllah. Being positive despite ........
His schedule has been tight which hinders his lunch out with me. My uncertain workloads on the other hand makes it difficult for us to talk to each other like before. However I was definitely happy to see him today. To spend the hours with him. And sincerely appreciate his time. But somehow, towards the end of it, I'm a little sensitive. Trying to earn half a day of his time now is no longer easy. I truly understand his work commitment; the reason i bypass lunch with him today after our date despite feeling extremely hungry. I have been one since morning actually. As usual, my silence can mean a hundred thoughts. I know he is trying his best too to fit me into his schedule. I know that he miss me like how i am missing him too. But I guess I miss those old times much more.
Teary, sensitive, unstable emotions thats what I have been lately. hanging on strong.
Work is ridiculously crazy. I have never feel so tensed up with workloads. But this time, not only it test on my capability but also my patience towards one of my MXO. Her no confidence, blurn-ess, kanchiong-nes, repetitive questions are driving me insane. I could no longer hold on to my "i'm-so-nice-and-helpful" motto. Lately, i will just blast my unhappiness. Gosh!
Mr Love: several attempt for meet-ups failed until today. Lunch dates too have been difficult. He could never understand how I feel cos' he is not the one waiting. And I'm truly getting used to this. Its been 4 years. Alhamdulillah. Hopeful of many more years, InsyaAllah. Being positive despite ........
His schedule has been tight which hinders his lunch out with me. My uncertain workloads on the other hand makes it difficult for us to talk to each other like before. However I was definitely happy to see him today. To spend the hours with him. And sincerely appreciate his time. But somehow, towards the end of it, I'm a little sensitive. Trying to earn half a day of his time now is no longer easy. I truly understand his work commitment; the reason i bypass lunch with him today after our date despite feeling extremely hungry. I have been one since morning actually. As usual, my silence can mean a hundred thoughts. I know he is trying his best too to fit me into his schedule. I know that he miss me like how i am missing him too. But I guess I miss those old times much more.
Teary, sensitive, unstable emotions thats what I have been lately. hanging on strong.