its fading

i'm beginning to feel tired of waiting..... 
i'm beginning to start feeling restless....

yes, i still love him... and i miss him so so much.... but, 
trying every means to understand the constraints. trying very hard to understand the situation, is not as easy as it seems. 
telling myself each day not to place any expectation of being able to spend that 1.5hrs of that time like before is a failure. 
i continued to wait. 

and then i realised something..... this can never last. this is just the beginning or should i say, its the mid of transition to an end.... 
it is just a matter of time...