The long-awaited KL holiday finally ended..... prior booking of hotel, Kidzania & Sunway Lagoon was made earlier.... all for the sake of seeing the smiles and laughs in their faces. Part of my sacrifices. Fulfilling the princesses wants... is my responsibility be it sooner or later. And by far, i've been fulfilling it. Alhamdulillah.
It was a pleasant surprise from the day we checked in into the hotel. I didnt know i had booked a 5-star hotel only to be told by someone close to me. Room was spacious. Kids enjoyed it. And it was super convenient to travel to where we intended to go. A free shuttle service provided by the hotel. Everything went well. My ex-tutor picked us up on our 2nd night to treat us Satay Kajang. And i love the satay arnab more than satay ayam... In the day, kids had fun at Kidzania. Thou it was pretty tiring for the parents.
Day 2 adventure to Sunway. I was so looking forward to the rides and waterpark. Thou' early in the morning, i was shocked to find out one of my pandora clip was missing. It had probably dropped the night before without me realising. Mood totally changed and disrupted by a stupid acts of unappreciative people. Just because of a question I imposed to my eldest, if its necessary for her to get a vest buoy. At one glance, one will know that its meant for kids, and not for someone like her. However, my question was being misinterpreted by the hub, thinking i'm being calculative. How on earth would i be one, when i dont even mind spending something even more than that vest. It was a moment of embarrassment; with his facial expression and loud voice. I couldnt help but teared with the treatment given to me. At that moment, i blurted out and asked them, why are they doing this to me despite all i had done. I told him, even though everything was being paid by me, that doesnt stop him from deciding if its right or not. When i gave the green light to just purchase, I got to know, that vest was not meant for eldest size. I kept quiet and kept composed; with my tears continued to flow.
While the two princesses changed, I decided not to go along. I gave an excuse of menstruation, thou' I know he knew i was just giving excuses. None of them consoled me nor invited me along. They just went on their own. For close to 2hrs; I was alone. Sat quietly at one of the bench, consoling my own self. And took walks with a swollen eyes. Pretended like nothing had happened. Kids returned, and the little one told me, its not fun not having me along. They couldnt take rides, becos she couldnt meet the height requirement. And i just kept quiet.
Back to hotel room.... I had a good talk with my eldest. Telling her all that i had done for her and her sister. The need to appreciate. And to think if what she had done earlier was right. Her demand for certain things at times just not appropriate. And remind her again that all the money spent for this holiday was mine alone. And i did not once complained anything that they wanted. But merely asked if there is a need for the vest, since we hardly went for swimming too... I even told her, did anyone asked if i need company for rides. Knowing how much i love the thrill. I reminded her, how i followed her in the queue, but ended up turning back, becos she was afraid.... And for adik sake, we didnt ride the roller coaster too, becos she couldnt meet the height requirement. I told her no one asked me about it. I was just there, wasting my money. She kept quiet and I was hopeful she registered what I said to her. After shower and washing up. We had our dinner. The best part of the day, he pretended nothing had happened. Not even a sorry. I let things go for the sake of the kids enjoyment.
I was really tested of my patience that day. I guess, i put my shame aside; with onlookers looking at my tears.
I am tired at times. Mentally and physically. All i need is a bit of appreciation. It is sad when you are being treated differently. When you had done your utmost best for the rest of the family.
I havent got the chance to meet up with Mr. Love. Before and after my holiday. His schedule is tight. As expected. He will be going for his family holiday to Malacca next week. I guess, the only available time could be next year. About us, been thinking about it too.....
How long could we carry on this relationship?
How deep is our love towards each other?
Its been constant communication. And at times, its difficult for me as I'm at my workstation.
Will we ever get tired or bored of this?
Its all questionable......
I am missing him a lot. Too much that at times I feel this is going nowhere. Truthfully, I am not feeling his love anymore. Basically its just updates.
Sighhhh!!!!
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