Wahai hati janganlah bersedih....
yang bermula pastinya akan berakhir...
Bukan kah sudah kau bersedia....
Bila tiba saatnya nanti....
I am not sad, I am not... been telling myself I am not.... but why does it hurt? I shouldnt feel that. Knowing it well it will come to an end.
Ive been waiting for him to say that, and it was finally mentioned yesterday in the chats. Ive been wanting to know will he ever said what he said, "we shall be good friends Or best friends"...... there can never be best friends between a man and a woman. I never believe in that. Im sorry. What he mentioned in the chats yesterday, was a way out to this relationship and turn it into a friendship. Thats how i read it as...
While i read in between lines of chats...., trying hard to ignore some points, i couldnt help but to go with my wildest thoughts. And its the best way for us all.... especially for him, for his happiness is what i wanted most.
Awak, saya minta maaf. Saya tak boleh jadi kawan yang baik... saya tak tahu macamana nak ubah satu perhubungan untuk menjadi satu persahabatan. Saya tak tahu. Saya perlukan masa. thou' u said, its not the time yet.., but the day will come right? Sooner or later, it will come. And since u dah sebut, dont u think i should start preparing myself now. Saya faham disebalik maksud awak. Im very much aware. What u said, bukan sebab awak tak sayang saya. Saya faham sangat.
Sakitnya kepala nie suddenly... tak sesakit pedih nya hati saya sekarang. But i will get over this soon..... very soon.... im sure.
Awak janganlah risau pasal saya.... saya harap awak dapat maafkan segala tingkah laku saya pada awak mulai sekarang. Cookies that i had left for u and dad, could probably be my last. Saya tak nak menyusahkan awak lagi.. its been too long, u hid e things from your wife, and i doubt before u knows me, tt ever happens.... i truly understands.
Terima kasih diatas kasih sayang dan cinta yang awak dah curahkan pada saya selama nie. Saya tak akan pernah lupakan kasih sayang awak.
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