When an OK doesn't really mean an OK. And many times, my okay wasn't really something i'm comfortable with, agree with and worst, really not in a state where i'm really okay with it. Only to feel hurt personally.
Especially when A second of Hope from a message turns into a 100 minute of Disappointment. Sounds dramatic? ohh, that's how i feel MOST of the time. thou' i taught myself many times not to be hopeful, yet again, I failed again and again.
The only consolation i guess this week was a surprise meet up on a saturday. an hour and a half of that morning getting a lil clingy and letting out a huge huff from missing him badly. That session, brings an all day smiles to me and changed my mood instantly.
Again, unexpected circumstances happened. Less communication, a rushed ones. Situations doesn't permits....... i'm trying to digest this again and again. Again and Again.
Is saying i love you suffice? Is missing the one you love enough to secure it? If you couldn't try to understand how your other half feeling too. am i really your other half, will be the next question.
I'm not sure if i'm being overly sensitive for nothing. But i'm missing the attention. I'm missing the real love. I miss the real situation. If you could understand me.
sigh! literally i'm tired. i need a vitamin for my heart.
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