Ramadhan's surprise "surprise!"

i mentioned yesterday during my posting that I wanted to blog during the last weeks of Ramadhan.

those surprise meet-ups that we had, meet-up which didnt ended up going home together, picking up of the raya goodies and chatted somewhere unexpected..... those were the moments. 

mr.love was at my workplace one of the days, handling school document as he mentioned. having the thoughts that we could go home together only to be surprised that, hub was on his way to fetch me too.... and we only got to talk to each other for 15 mins or so under the void deck. 

the day after, i rushed to the mrt stn, as mr.love was already waiting (this time, he didnt travel down to GM, hehe).... we traveled back together only to have me alighted alone while he continued his journey. and conversations between us at that moment was interrupted by the need to correspond with his car agent on and off. 

and the day he collected the raya goodies. i was on half day. we had to detour somewhere instead of him sending me home as hub was out of home, running errands. and that minutes we had for each other, is a moment of cheekiness.... the pecks of kisses which i'm avoiding. the trick he had on me. the naughty thoughts. 

it made me realised how difficult this relationship is actually, but alhamdulillah, its been 6years. it was difficult for us to surprise each other at times, to communicate, to walk home together holding hands, for me to be with him and hug him to comfort him when he's down with unexpected problems. it makes me feel so distant. it makes me feel that i'm nowhere near to together shoulder the issues. 

i just feel so helpless.