29 Ramadhan

it is the last day of Ramadhan... and of course, it saddens to have this blessed month leaving us so soon.... Days of Ramadhan had passed very fast... too fast that i feel i hadnt done enough seeking solace with Allah.... i'm sad. and throughout this Ramadhan too, communication with mr. love continues, and only yesterday did we meet to allow me to pass him his cookies, baked with much love by yours truly. mr.love was never left out of my thoughts. i love him lots. it's been a month i left blogging. daily routine continues. giving up cookies orders for the sake of my first born. taking in only about 20 orders for my signature cookie. its been a challenging ramadhan, with acute backache that refrained me from sitting too long. continued with a swell in the eye.... and right now, flu to end my ramadhan. alhamdulillah, for im sure Allah still loves me. emotionally disturbed despite my smiles and laughter. looking at mom last nite filling up the lepat together with me, she is one strong woman. and i could never beat her strength. spring cleaned her home all on her own... fighting against her sadness for the little break-ups in the fam... cooking for us... i love her with all my heart. and all i could do for her is to accompany her and make her happy. for i'm still the little mischievious joker of the family... this was shown, through her laughters when i brought her out, while she is home with me. May Allah swt gives me the chance to make her happy throughout and keeps my mom healthy and safe always. missing my arwah dad terribly... despite his passing for 16years now. visited his grave weeks back, and i could not held my tears. how i wish he is still around. i'm sure he will be happy to see my princess growing right before his eyes. i'm sure he will be very happy to know that i'm staying next to his unit. a strict and firm man but with much love. loveable by others too.. still being remembered by people around me. his smiles, his strong family ties. O Allah, please grant him the best in your Jannah. i can't wait to be reunited to him, to be hugged by him again. i am missing you so much abah. al-fateha. dear mr.love....... i know you have been checking my blog now and then at your convenience time looking for updates. the only update which you need to know is, i'm so in love with you. it's been a strong 3 years of knowing you dear. with occasional sulking of me... occasional impatience of me... but you are still there loving me like before or even more. no regrets of knowing you mr.love for you brightens my day with your smile, i am missing that now... u filled my time with your sayang-sayang messages and chats... your concern towards me when i'm unwell... and i appreciate all that with all my heart. thank you dear. i've been blessed with all the love that i have. and i am thankful to Allah for that. and i'm sure there will be many more blessings to come, insyaAllah for me and my family and also to the people whom i love... i had been reading mr.pai epal by Mardhiah, and i'm so into the character. the ups and down the main characters had to believe in their love. and the beautiful arrangement Allah had for them to bring them together. i smiled, i cried, i laughed to the composition of the novel. with the screening of my mr.love on and off.. hehe.. oh well, it's just another novel that i cant get over reading with.... mr.love, selamat menyambut lebaran. mohon maaf zahir dan batin..... look forward to see you many days insya'Allah. sayang awak sangat.... :)