Reading through past conversations can bring so much memories alive. Well, there wasn't much left, and i chanced upon another 3 saved chats. 2 of which while we were in Melaka.... negeri yg bersejarah, i have to agree, a historical place for us both too...
While another chats was one of those days that he picked me up to work, waiting at a nearby estate near the school.
Throughout our conversations, he never failed to show his care and concern. Whereas me, I never failed to show my ego. haha!! There were so much love in our conversations, and still do. Most of it comes from him.
I had a chance to talk to kakak last sat during iftar. While some of them were having jemaah prayers, there were only kakak and i in the kitchen. I told her, how i could possibly just shut myself out of the relationship after being caught. But because of the love that we had for each other so strong, i tried hard to preserve it. I was not shy to tell her that, he was too good of a man for me to let go. Which she agreed. But i told her, this is not the way i want it to be, so that i could be with him. Bcos' hub is also a good man except for his temper.
Kakak told me how lucky i am to have someone who worries for me all the time, Who cares for me. Yes, i'm thankful ya Allah for that. Alhamdulillah. And may this last forever throughout our relationship. Ameen.
What worries me lately, if he could wait for me. 10, 15, 20 years... i'm not sure. Or whether if we ever could have the chance to be together in this Dunya. I do not know.
i'm getting weak actually. and this is not me.....
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